I went for a walk in the park today. I needed to clear my head. I needed to breath fresh air. I couldn’t get over how brown the earth has become. It’s always brown when the snow melts, but this year we’ve been warned about the potential “die back”. The bugs survived the winter, but it’s possible many green things did not.
We’re going to have to wait and see.
It was warm enough to wear tennis shoes, but the grey skies and wind forced me to keep my full-length parka pulled tight. It felt great to breath in the breeze, even if it was a bit chilly. It wasn’t negative 40 chilly, so I’d say it was a wonderful day. Every split tree I passed and every pummeled bush, I wondered, “Will it come back, or has it died back?”
We’re going to have to wait and see.
I’ve always thought the hardest parts in life are not the actual changes, but the waiting for the change. The in-between times, when you know big change is coming, but you can do nothing about it but await its arrival. I find in-between particularly hard to tolerate, as it requires patience of mind and stillness of spirit. I have neither. Will I develop these skills?
We’re going to have to wait and see.
In the meantime, my in-between has started to resemble a tornado (if we use spring analogies, spring will come). Two families are dueling over our house. An event at school is requiring more than I have to give. The girls and I are scheduled to leave town, but it seems we need to pack up…for real-zees. My mailman greeted me with a package I would love to send back. New Meds direct from the Manufacturer, for old problems I wish would disappear. As my friends face such horrible illnesses, I hate to complain, but MAN, do I ever dread opening this box. What will the next 6 weeks bring? Is the season of in-between coming to an end?
We’re going to have to wait and see.
Do tell. What do you dread more: the change itself, or the in-between?
5 responses to “The In-Between”
I have always found that change is good,,can be great. The in-between is, for me, the worst time. I’m there now and I reallllllly don’t like it. But I have to take solace that the change to come will be worth the in-between.
The waiting is the hardest part.
I’m with you on this one.
Totally in-between is the worst because you can’t get out of your head and that’s the worst place to be and normally way worse than the end result.
The in-between and trying to control what is going to happen and come up with a plan for every possibility. As if we had any control to begin with, right? 🙁